Depression, You Complete Me No More

What is it with depression?  Why does she have the final say–wearing me out with her moodiness until I am no longer in the mood for anything at all?  There has not been a time when melancholy has not accompanied me.  Uninvited, like an unwelcome houseguest.

You think you complete me–you actually deplete me.  

Well, I am tired of you.

If you refuse to leave voluntarily, then I will make you go away.

I will hide you under my smile.

I will deny your existence.

I will work out more.

I will relax more.

I will hang out with happy people.

I will numb you with wine–preferably red.

I will numb you with exercise.

I understand you have accompanied me for so long now, you have become a part of me.

I understand it will take time to familiarize my surroundings without you surrounding me.

I understand it will not be easy.

I know I cannot do it alone.

Neither can you.  

Why are you cast down, O my soul,
and why are you in turmoil within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,
my salvation and my God.  (Psalm 42:11 ESV)

2 thoughts on “Depression, You Complete Me No More

  1. I really like this! I think depression is such hard work. I too cannot remember a time when melancholy has not accompanied me…I can’t help but feel complete resentment for depression taking my life away like it has.

    Larly ❤

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