One year ago today I began a journey with God, which started in a place of despair so thick, it nearly suffocated me.
Each morning for eight months straight, I sat at the kitchen table, with Bible, pencil and paper by my side, as I absorbed God’s Word, and poured to paper anything and everything. The first days were choppy, like the thoughts lay trapped underneath crushing feelings, and even though they desired release from the weight, they rose up slowly, and with much effort.
Still, over time, these daily moments altered my life. Or rather, kept me alive.
But there was another writing, one that was written before Bill’s death, to be opened upon his departure, that saved my life in more ways than I will share in this post.
Words speak life, even after death.
They fuel hope.
I have a friend who began a ministry not long ago, titled, #Sowkind. It is a way to pour much-needed kindness into others. I think of the letter Bill wrote as a #Sowkindlegacy, living on long after his absence.
On the one-year milestone, I wrote a letter to my girls. I hope my words encourage as much as the one their daddy left for them.
I hope these words encourage you to build life into those you love before it is too late (I typed it as is…errors and all).
I wanted to tell you that you have made my life worth living. You are my best friend, you and I have been together for almost 30 years. You have been there through all our highs and lows. As a friend you have taught me how to be a better person and caring more for others than myself. You shared with me more than just friendship you shared with me your faith and I welcomed it, because of you I will go to heaven and I will be there waiting to see you again. I couldn’t think of a better friend to share my life with.
You are my wife, you showed me how to include another person in my space and that space was filled by your love. You made me a husband, one who cared and believed in you. You and I learned how to be parents together or should I say Kylie taught us how to be parents, we learned together as a family to be a family. Through your caring nature you instilled in me a desire to raise our girls with dignity and respect.
You are my Love. I have been in awe ever since the day we met. Your beauty, charm and humor knocked me over. I cannot describe my love for you, you have filled my life with happiness, excitement and zest.
I want you to be strong and live a beautiful fulfilling life, please continue to share all your glorious attributes with those you love.
You have a way with words and you have shared stories with so many others and inspired them, so never ever quit. You will write that book.
I have never been so proud of someone in my whole life and you will always be in my heart.
Love you Baby Cakes