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Emotions in Motion

My emotions at any given moment vary like a spring weather report. Moment by moment, emotions in motion. I ran into a friend in the grocery store the other day, and after a nice long and needed hug, she asked how I was doing. I share that often it feels surreal, like an out-of-body experience, while… Continue reading Emotions in Motion

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Acknowledging Grief

I enter the room, carefully maneuvering around the land mine of a familiar face, which I desire to avoid for fear familiarity will cause an explosion to my composure. I make my way to a corner to hide in the wide-open, when the gracious host walks my way and asks how I am doing. "I… Continue reading Acknowledging Grief

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Against Improbable Odds

Statistically speaking, there is a 10% chance of cure.  Yes, I said it.  This percentage doesn't seem as drastic until you reverse its order:  90% chance of not entering remission. Stay with me here. Don't go off in thought, thinking of ways to tell me not to entertain such thoughts.  Truth is, it is a sterile reminder… Continue reading Against Improbable Odds

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Sitting at the kitchen table, I decide to open the pamphlet on the drug Bill will begin in the near future. Five pages long, it is specifically catered to a similar, yet different cancer, as his type does not have specific trials as of yet. The similarity is the cancer didn't  respond to traditional treatment, that being chemotherapy, and has… Continue reading Trials

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Sometimes the Truth is Hard to Swallow

I opened the refrigerator to discover the unthinkable–Daughter #3  drank the remaining orange juice. I saved just enough for me. How dare she? I know it was her because she left her empty carton on the counter, and well, Hubs would have discarded the evidence. This is ground for termination in my household. How in the world will I… Continue reading Sometimes the Truth is Hard to Swallow

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Warning, Steep Curves Ahead

  It was the time-frame of in between—not yet cancer diagnosis, not quite well. This is where the journey begins. It began with an itch in my soul to document my moments into some type of order. Since I am not a linear thinker, this alone can be overwhelming. This first segment was from November 1, 2015--one… Continue reading Warning, Steep Curves Ahead

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My Faith Had Somewhat Faded

Calvary Chapel Just two words.  To be specific, a name of a church. Yet, these 13 letters changed my life in an instant, and propelled us to leave our home in Michigan for San Antonio, via Southern California. Calvary Chapel was mentioned to me by a previous potential employer, as a place to attend if we ended… Continue reading My Faith Had Somewhat Faded

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She Leaned In

I sat in the chair after dismissal, and fidgeted with my belongings in an attempt to appear distracted from the person who sat one seat away from the empty one beside me. Slowly, I placed each item into my bag, methodically, until I was left without an excuse in hand. At this, she did what I… Continue reading She Leaned In

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You Think I’ve Got Potential?

She was edgy and somewhat dangerous; one of those sketchy individuals we are better off steering clear. Dangerous like Kit DeLuca, the sidekick of Vivian. The spunky girl with the feisty mouth and shady profession. If you are going, "huh?" right now, I am referring to the characters in the movie, 'Pretty Woman'. To refresh… Continue reading You Think I’ve Got Potential?

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Angel in the Restroom

It is rumored, from those who have experienced the presence of an angel and lived to talk about it, that a specific trait among them was characteristic of their divine presence--no, not that being large, white wings. It is said angels have strikingly-blue eyes. Since I am quite certain there is no definitive evidence to prove this theory, I… Continue reading Angel in the Restroom

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It’s Not Over Until It’s Over

I heard a rumor not too long ago that he loved Jesus. To say I was shocked was an understatement. This was in no way the man knew—or should I say, boy. The union was brief for this teenage couple-- he a mere nineteen, and I, a sweet sixteen. No surprise there. But, imagine my shock to hear that, not… Continue reading It’s Not Over Until It’s Over